I have come to the realization that I am finding it hard to write my slices because I haven’t been completely honest with myself or with my readers.
I feel that I have lost some of the passion that I used to bring to my profession. I still feel honored to teach and still feel it’s the best job in the world but it’s getting harder and harder to do.
I know it’s been said before but it’s the pressure of testing. Several weeks ago, a student said ,”We only learn things because they’re going to be on the test”. And, she’s correct. Every grade level’s requirements, at least in math, have become more and more rigorous. The students find it difficult to master the content. If the teacher slows down because she believes she teaches students and not a subject, the students have not covered what they need to be successful with the following year’s curriculum. Thus, begins a downward spiral that is not easy to redirect or correct.
I have asked to move to a lower grade next year. I have primarily taught 7/8 grade with three years of 6th under my belt. I’m going to be moving (hopefully) to 5th grade. I haven’t taught that grade since 1991. I am hoping that they are not as jaded and that there may be a joy of learning that I am still able to spark.
Believe me, I know that this is my issue and not the school’s or the student’s. I am not passing the blame. I know that I have to find something that will reignite my passion.
I began cleaning out my files of lesson plans, dittos, and practice books. Hopefully, it will make room for creative energy to flow into my room freely.